January 10, 2007
Okay, so as promised, ahappyhappier entry for the 1644th post. Not exactly the "I'm really very happy" post but a much better post than the previous, I must say. I'm relieved. Maybe because I'm only left with one and only one choice - I no longer have to battle between the maybe yes, maybe no situation.Since you've already made up your mind(God knows how long ago because I didn't know at all till now), I had to make up mine too, I'm not left with much choice anyway.
I hope you keep your promise to me. Which may be the reason why I'm still feeling fine, but most probably not, I still can't tell why I'm feeling fine but I am. And I'm glad I'm feeling this way. Thank you for taking some time off to talk to me today.So maybe you did hurt my feelings today, but it's okay. Now you know, if you listened to what I said. I've cleared that doubt(if you ever treated it as one). It's probably a little too late, but better late than never.
I think I sung too much of "There can be miracles, when you believe". So much that I believed it was a miracle. It's funny, it really is.
Now it's time for me to stand up on my own two feet and enjoy my last year of being a teenager(by year). No, I didn't waste the past 4-5years. I've had my good times too, really good ones.
Maybe I knew it right from the start, but I just wanted to hold on to the slightest beam of hope. But my, oh my, boy. I never felt so loved in my entire life. But it's really you I have to thank for coming back, because it was then I learnt to forgive myself and not be so dependent on people. Else I'd think I'll still be crying so badly now.
I really have to say thanks especially to Lic and Lin for being there always, and to Vig who's been entertaining me for the past few sleepless nights. We should go out real soon! I miss going out with you. (:
Nope, I don't feel like running away anymore. (:
-nIx- @ [[9:44 PM]]
Okay, so as promised, a
I hope you keep your promise to me. Which may be the reason why I'm still feeling fine, but most probably not, I still can't tell why I'm feeling fine but I am. And I'm glad I'm feeling this way. Thank you for taking some time off to talk to me today.So maybe you did hurt my feelings today, but it's okay. Now you know, if you listened to what I said. I've cleared that doubt(if you ever treated it as one). It's probably a little too late, but better late than never.
I think I sung too much of "There can be miracles, when you believe". So much that I believed it was a miracle. It's funny, it really is.
Now it's time for me to stand up on my own two feet and enjoy my last year of being a teenager(by year). No, I didn't waste the past 4-5years. I've had my good times too, really good ones.
Maybe I knew it right from the start, but I just wanted to hold on to the slightest beam of hope. But my, oh my, boy. I never felt so loved in my entire life. But it's really you I have to thank for coming back, because it was then I learnt to forgive myself and not be so dependent on people. Else I'd think I'll still be crying so badly now.
I really have to say thanks especially to Lic and Lin for being there always, and to Vig who's been entertaining me for the past few sleepless nights. We should go out real soon! I miss going out with you. (:
Nope, I don't feel like running away anymore. (:
; and i can't say that it wasn't meaningful at all.
because i've learnt a lot from this.
Thank you. (:
because i've learnt a lot from this.
Thank you. (:
-nIx- @ [[9:44 PM]]
